Dear Henry, let me tell you about the woman who held it together for us

Dear Mom,

We need to talk.... not just every mother's day talk. Because all that "my mom is better then yours" and "my mom is my best friend" and "my mom is my rock and hero" year after year starts to seem like just words. What you are is so much more then all of that. 

When I sit back and think about my life, my best memories were possible because of you. You supported me when I wanted to be a tennis star (for 1 month), when I wanted to be a singer (but I don't sing in public), when I wanted to have a makeup brand (waste of time), when I wanted to youtube (duh), when I wanted to be a hip hop dancer (but got bored), when I wanted to be an actor (don’t we all?), when I wanted to go to culinary school, when I wanted to move to Hawaii, when I met the man of my dreams, when we planned the wedding, when we decided to open a cafe, when we decided to open a restaurant, when we decided to do IVF. You drove me, supported me and loved me through it all. You always said that I could do anything that I wanted and you made me feel so special. I will never be able to tell you how grateful I am to have you. I will never be able to show you the love that you have shown me, but I hope you know that you are everything to me. 

Just when I thought that you had already done everything, shit got real. That day in June, when I was in the hospital bed, crying for my Mommy and the nurse called you. 15 Minutes later you were there, holding my hand looking in my eyes. I told you, it’s going to be ok, this isn’t the end of our family, just an unfortunate event, we will pull through. You looked right back at me and said, He’s going to be fine, this will be ok. when I was preparing my self to take down the nursery, you were trying to figure out how to set it up quicker. You had no doubt, and you made me strong. You helped me fight. 

In that moment, I knew that I was going to be just like you to our sweet Henry, and that we were going to be ok. I want to be everything that you are. 

While Matt and I were in the hospital, instead of going on the vacation that you had already booked and paid for, you became a Line cook and a general manager. Without you, Nook would have died. After you worked your little butt off all day you spent all night with me in the hospital, then when Henry came, you spent the evenings with him when I had to go home. 

We have been so consumed in Henry I didn't get to tell you that you saved me. You don't get the recognition that you deserve. Being a mom is hard and I appreciate everything that you have done for me and my little family.

So yes, you are better then every other mom, and you are my very best friend, and you are my rock and you are my hero…. but it’s so so much more. I love you… with my whole heart. 

Thank you. For being you and for loving me unconditionally. You’re not just the cool mom, and the fun mom, and the pretty mom, you’re mine and thats my favorite part! I wouldn’t trade you for any one….. EVER! 

I Love You Mommy!

Nikki