Dear Henry, and then there were four!

We are so excited to announce that we are expecting! Due date is in April, but we all know thats just a guess.

Hello everyone! I honestly didn’t know if I would ever return here, this blog was a saving grace for me at one point in my life and I am so grateful for that. I started feeling like once Henry was out of the woods, my updates were boring. What was I supposed to share? So I stepped all the way back. I did a few things here and there over the past 5 years but it never felt right. THIS is a time i’d like to document for me and for Henry and of course Matt and baby.

Up until I was 28, I didn’t want kids. I was so happy in my life with Matt, living in this carefree space that we had created living the life of our dreams. We had no money but we didn’t care, we had each other and that was enough for us. Then one day after a Gilmore Girls marathon I started to dream about more. I remember the day perfectly, I had just finished a show, and matt was making dinner, and I just looked at him and said “We would make a pretty cool person, don’t you think?”. We spent the next month talking about it, and getting more excited for the possibilities. We began trying right away. 2 years later, without even a scare we went to a fertility clinic for some testing. I had what was dubbed “unexplained infertility” and our only option was IVF. So thats what we did. After one failed round we got pregnant! Henry is our miracle and truly the best thing that has ever happened to us.

After Henry we wanted more! We went through another failed round of IVF and a miscarriage. From there we took a break. Financially we had been bleeding money for so many years, we wanted to pause. Focus on our lives and Henry and to make sure that we were living to the fullest. We have 2 embryos left, which we planned to use last year, but then covid. So we figured we would use them this year, but covid is still living large, and now we are 36 and Henry is 5 and the more we talked the more we felt like maybe we were meant to be a family of 3. So we started discussing donating our embryos, but we weren’t ready to commit to that. So we will freeze them 1 more year and see where we are, mentally.

Then one day in August after what I felt like was just another day, I realized that I was two weeks late, but I’m infertile and my cycle is not normal so I just kept living my life. Then my sister in law, sweet Erin, kept having all of these pregnancy symptoms and she bought a test, and I was in target and I bought a test. I got home and took it immediately. It was positive! We’re having a baby! All on our own! A free baby! WOW!

stay tuned.

With love,

Nikki

THANK YOU TINA FOR ALWAYS MAKING MY FAMILY LOOK SO GREAT! www.pureinart.com for information on our favorite photographer and all around amazing person!!

P.S Erin is pregnant too! Let the record show that even though she is 6 weeks ahead of me I found out 1 day before her. So technically I’m winning.